Wide Awake by Making April
My mistake, you should never be afraid to cut your losses
now I know, now I know
It was mine to make, I was putting up a fight for worthless causes
now I know, just to let it go
I was dying for our moment to arrive
now I'm running further just to feel alive
Chorus:
Don't wanna get caught up dreaming of your love
cause when I open my eyes there's not a shot in this life
I might as well give up and save all my good luck
for when I've when I've got the extra change
you can move aside cause now I'm wide awake
Calling out you don't even pick it up on nights and weekends
over and over
Talk about not giving up for all the wrongest reasons
over and over
How was I mislead for so much time?
when it's all been said and done I'll be alright
(Chorus)
But is it getting any better yet?
Is it getting any better yet?
Well is it getting any better yet?
The word is out that I'm not giving in
and if you're ready by now well it's too late to begin
Don't wanna get caught up
dreaming of your love
cause when I open my eyes
(Chorus)
This song brought tears to my eyes. The line which says 'Don't wanna get caught up dreaming of your love, cause when I open my eyes there's not a shot in this life' made me think clearly, and realize that it's true. I don't wanna wake up in the morning (or afternoon). I just want to keep on sleeping and dreaming.
But, it's also avoiding the reality of things. The fact that I have exams in a month, and should be studying, not procrastinating. And despite all my optimism and hope, it's still pretty plain obvious he doesn't like me as much as I do. Heck, maybe I'm just fooling myself into liking him so much.
It wouldn't be the first time.
I'm such a mess, aren't I? I feel so unstable all the time. I can't keep anything under control, and I feel like such a bad friend, sometimes. Not to mention, I haven't read my Bible in forever and I'm not praying anymore. Something's gone wrong and I don't know what.
'I might as well give up and save all my good luck for when I've got the extra change.'
...but when will I wake up?
