I feel left behind, sometimes. Everything's so different now, and I'm completely detached from all of it. I can only watch from the sidelines, and wonder about what could've been. I feel somewhat jealous, eventhough I wouldn't trade what I have now for that. I've watched too much Project Runway. The colors of the fabrics tempt me.
Thursday, February 14, 2008
This day is more significant than it should be. One year ago, I told myself it was over. And this year, it is. I'm guarding my heart for someone else now. And he is just perfect. He's the dream I always wanted.The one who made me smile when he asked if I was really sure about getting coconut juice for a drink. Who told me to try the star-apple. Who made me laugh when he showed me the barrel-man. Who makes me feel like a total child, sometimes.Oh, my gosh. He's indescribable. I melt, I grin, I daydream at the thought of him. What makes it so sweet is that he actually knows who I am. What makes it like a fairytale is that we met as children and didn't remember it. Well, I don't. Now, I wish I did.All I remember is being cold, sleepy and annoyed that McD wasn't serving anything other than the breakfast menu that early morning, 8 years ago. How I long to go back in time and relive the past. I was probably half-asleep; that's why I don't remember anything.Really. God gives you the most unexpected blessings. I'm grateful that he was overseas in the USA, when I went back 2 years ago. I was a wreck, then. But, I'm not now. And he's back too.Miracle of a chance,If love was truly meant to be,It's rightful course,would take place......in the most heartbreaking ways.- Jayne.My heart is for you only, Carlos.Have a sweet Valentine's everyone.